It's just been a "BLAH" day today! :( But oh well...that is just life! No changing that! It makes you appreciate the good days that you have! THAT'S for sure!
I didn't get out of bed 'til 11:50 today! LITERALLY! Now, granted, I was awake, but just not up! Didn't feel like it! I laid there awake for awhile, before finally looking at the clock, & it was 10:39! WOW! Jason was gone, & HAD been gone since around 8:00...he had to go to PriceChopper to get me some laundry soap (I was fresh out!), & then he was going to go check on his cows...Well, he come in around 11:15 & was in shock that I was still in bed! Heehee! I didn't care though! Saturdays are my "lazy" days! Only day I really get to sleep in & just take it easy! I only had Katelyn today, & at this time, she was still asleep!!! He 'bout FLIPPED out when he realized that too!!! LOL! He finally went & woke her up at 11:40. I'd say she had plenty of sleep! :)
I was just putzin' on my computer...goofin', browsing around ebay, etc...just wasting time, being lazy! Afterall, I was waiting on my laundry soap! ;)
Anyhow, I ended up getting 3 loads of laundry done, my hair washed, & basically NOTHING else! Just was NOT in the mood for anything else today...:(
I DID make a 14" chocolate chip cookie though...boy was THAT a mistake! :(
I made myself SICK on it, & regretted it sooooo bad afterwards! I am just NOT doing good on the eating right thing, ever since around the beginning of December...:(
I did good for like a week (Mon-Fri), 2 weeks ago, but that is long since passed...
I NEED NEED NEED to get back "in the groove" of this whole thing! I'm no longer on a mission to lose weight, but I WOULD like to maintain what I HAVE lost!!! Gaining even a LITTLE bit back would mess me up so bad mentally, I'm afraid!
My weight is seeming to fluctuate so bad lately though!!! Like my fluids are all messed up or something! For instance, last Friday morning when I weighed (Jan. 12), I weighed 98 lbs. Then, I weighed again this Tuesday morning (Jan. 17), & I was @ 100 lbs, which is cool cuz that is my goal - to stay at 100! Then I weighed again YESTERDAY morning (Jan. 19), & was @ 102 lbs! I was NOT happy to say the least...Although I KNOW there is almost NO WAY POSSIBLE that I could gain 2 lbs in 3 days, it STILL worried me sick, yet I didn't have enough willpower to do anything about it! Hmmmmmm...go figure...
We went to Jonesboro last night, & went out to eat w/ Cliff & Sarah, & I felt like I overdid it! BAD! :(
We went to Cracker Barrell & I ate OVER 2 cornbread muffins, a chicken BLT sandwich, & Jason's side of brown rice that came w/ his meal...We also shared a blackberry cobbler w/ice cream for dessert...UGGGGGGGGH! What a piggy!
Then I had some cappuccino on the way home, which I did NOT need AT ALL!!!
O, sometimes I feel like the world's BIGGEST failure!!! :(
I am gonna make a vow though!!! To myself & on HERE! Not fitday, NOT 360, JUST on here! Since this is my 1st blog, & something "new" for myself, I am gonna make a vow tonight!
My vow is this: I am gonna LAY OFF OF THE SWEETS!!! YES! I GOT TO! It has been crazy since I started baking back in the beginning of December for Christmas! JUST CRAZY! I can NOT continue this! Even Jason says I need to start eating healthier! I agree! All I ate today was part of that stinkin' chocolate chip cookie & chocolate chips, up until we went to Cozumel tonight @ 7:00!!! NOT GOOD! I didn't take Phen today though, so that's probably why I was craving & wanting sweets so bad! BLEH!
Anyhoo...it is 11:59 p.m., & I need to head to bed to try to get some sleep! It COULD be a long day tomorrow (as all Sundays are), but it depends on the weather situation! It is supposed to start sleeting around 2 a.m., so I guess we'll see in the morning when we get up! Sure hope it's not too bad that we lose power or anything like that!!! :(
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